I took this picture during church this morning. It was such a specific thing to see: Lucy’s soon to be 8 year old hand resting on my soon to be 35 year old palm.
I have thought throughout the day – throughout lacing up her boots – throughout sledding with her in my lap – throughout ordering her Starbucks – throughout watching her come out of the Starbucks bathroom with her snow pants draped on her arm; rocking stockings only – throughout her sweet kisses and her older sister’s sweet kisses – I have thought throughout all these things what the purpose of this meaning is.
…How to explain my heart in this picture.
As I warmed up the house – cranking the heat and thawing my toes in the shower – I recalled this recording I have from last year of a little ditty I wrote in 2014 before my grandma passed. And it really tells the truth of where my heart is….
Someday I’ll be old. Someday – I’ll be old.
Someone will come visit me and hold my hand.
They’ll tell me that I look good. They’ll talk about the weather. They’ll ask me how I’m feeling …
…and I won’t know why I’m there.
Part of me will be gone – on my other way – part of me will be there; to live another day…
Someday I’ll be old.
And so – on this Valentine’s, I suppose I simply treasure this 34 year old / 7 year old moment. Because it is different than the others and younger than the rest. And it’s invaluable to me.
This is my first post posting vocals. Kind of a step for me. Happy Valentine’s Day.