it’s still before noon here in the central time zone. one of the almost 6 month old puppies is giving off a “please cuddle i am so so sweet also this is different than what i am used to happening right now” whine and the most interesting thing about it is that i don’t actually know if it is the boy dog or the girl dog, the caramel colored one or the blonde.
i told my husband to expect that in 4 – 5 years i would likely want another puppy: a gray one that i can master train to be a gentle giant, loving big fat amazing dog. like the kind built for mountains, treks and carrying supplies – providing warmth and emotional support.
a long, long time ago – like right when the crate and barrel on brentwood blvd went up, that plaza had a couple of shops that were for design minded people. one of the shops; it’s shop owner had two bouvier des flandres. i felt completely enamored with these gray, tall gentle wandering souls who glided behind the shop keeper’s case and looked at me only to say hello.
the baby dogs in my house now have fallen silent. the only sound in my house is some appliance hum (no laundry), the birds outside and the faint dispelling of radiohead coming from our bedroom where my husband naps. likely not dreaming of that same gray puppy.
having two puppies is – for both of us – colliding worlds of independence and order with chaos and random events. part of the reason for the two puppies at this junction is because it is all mixed up anyhow.
we are both exploring and operating.
on a personal level, i am the boss of my creative life which requires settling into ideas that are new to me:
i set my schedule completely
i take baby steps towards my dreams.
i express myself freely through music, words and song as an emotional gift to the world.
ideas i have known and always known (my husband is brilliant, his talent unending, my kids? glorious (and all on vacation) etc etc etc) are the roots of this whole new machine: my titanic, my life force, my creative energy.
gratitude, at some point, evolves from appreciating what you see to honoring what you know (about yourself and others).
trust is that gratitude’s inevitable fruit.
said another way: thoughtfulness is spacing out and forgetting’s best friend in that one needs the other to hurt in order to heal.
Trust is spacing out and forgetting’s best friend.
Me, 7.17.21
an opposites attract sort of thing.
welcome (back) to my blog. please consider sharing my writing.
for those new, hey how are ya – you usually find me on family stuff. if you got here because of the word “puppies”, let me know in the comments and let’s start sharing ideas on how to raise littermates, siblings, and establish independence.
ok. that’s all for now.
A married woman with her children lays on a theatre bench in Bellingham, Washington’s Boulevard Park July 3, 2020. #PandemicBride
Frozen Spaghetti 